NEW SITE

Sorry I keep changing sites on you guys.... along with revamping my brand, its very important that I do it in the best way possible.  I will start blogging at this other site so please follow me there and I promise, no more new sites! lol

thank you!

Sheng

http://www.shengmoua-beautyforashes.blogspot.com/

Wednesday OOTD

4/18 Wednesday: 


I had a pretty important meeting today so I dressed up a little bit more sophisticated instead of my usual colorful self. The meeting didn't turn out so well and I was pretty stressed out.... My only solution was therapy.... at the store. I first went to Target and got a few necessary items. I actually found that they sold the ELF Primer there so I got 2! I've never tried theirs but I figured its so cheap, why not.....I also got the body glow, Kabuki brush and a few more items.... 

This clutch was soooo cute. 

Its also Wednesday, which means is Bible Study night.  To our surprise Parachute Band was there and omg, I so needed them tonight along with god.  Here's a photo we shot with him. Omega Levine is the Frontman and his voice is amazing! 

Using our love for Fashion for something more....

Hi my friends:  
     This is an organization that I am so passionate about and they represent exactly what my purpose in life is. They have an upcoming event to promote "Self Esteem" and help women for success. If you can come volunteer, it'll be something so rewarding..They do many other events such as Men's Success Day and they give away prom dressings/accessories for young girls going to Prom...and many many more...You can look at their website here: 


Their Mission: 

About Working Wardrobes

OUR MISSION:

Working Wardrobes empowers men, women, and young adults in life crises to confidently enter the workforce with career development and wardrobe services.

OUR VISION:

To increase the self-sufficiency of individuals through community and corporate partnerships.

OUR BELIEFS:

We believe in...

• Serving our clients, volunteers and donors with dignity and respect;
• Transforming the lives of our clients through job readiness and career development, leading to self-sufficiency;
• Engaging the power of volunteerism;
• Building strategic partnerships; and
• Enhancing Working Wardrobes' financial stability through social enterprise.

Working Wardrobes empowers men, women & young adults overcoming difficult challenges to confidently enter the workforce and achieve self-sufficiency. We provide career training, job placement assistance and wardrobe services in an environment of dignity and respect.

Each year we serve over 5,000 clients from a wide spectrum of backgrounds, including Welfare-to-Work, alcohol & substance abuse, domestic violence, transitional homelessness, catastrophic illness and other life crises.

I will be there,hope you will too! Let's lead with our Passion for Fashion but for the purpose of help others....  Pay it Forward! 

http://www.workingwardrobes.org/website1

My Favorite Store "Target"

I was in Fresno last weekend and we had a blast just hanging out at Target.... It was late and we were bored so we headed out to play... yes at Target.. I can't get enough of it...

The Dressing Room - Foreign Exchange

This is part of my "Dressing Room" photo session.  I love these because although I try so many pieces on, I don't usually buy them all.... but I sure want to!

I had so much fun!

I love all of these......  I can't wait to go shopping there in a few weeks! 

Many Thanks

What an amazing birthday I had yesterday. I was so emotional alllll day long.  All the love that poured in through FB, personal emails, texts and phone calls just overfilled my heart.  I couldn't believe all the love that everyone showed me.  I told myself I need to start buying waterproof mascara because wow, I cried all day long and I was at work! lol  - So many many thanks to all my friends and family who care and there were so many of you.....  I am so blessed!

Many many many thanks for all the pouring of love! I love you all. 

This is going to be an amazing year and I can't wait! 

It's almost midnight

In less then 2 hours it'll be my birthday and I'm a little sad.... not that I'm getting older, but that I miss my family so much. Living so far a part from my parents who lives in MN along with my brothers/sis in laws/nephews and my sister/brother in law in NY, it just makes me wish we were together always and forever.  Its funny how when you are younger, all you want to do is stay away from your parents but as you get older, the only thing that matters is being with your family. I am so blessed to have such great people in my life.  Thank you for always loving me for who I am, even when I was the most lost I've ever been. Thank you for never judging me and for always standing next to me. I am no longer dwelling on yesterday but only on tomorrow and where its going to take me. I am finally whole and tomorrow will be a better day.....and I am happier then ever. Happy Birthday to me.

To my Xiong family, I love you so much and thanks for always loving and caring for me. I'm so glad I have you as my new home. 

My god is always with me

The Dressing Room - Kardashian Kollection

I have this album on my Facebook page where I call it "The Dressing Room". This is where I take photos of clothing that I'm trying on. I try on alot of clothes but I don't always buy them.  I am currently working on losing some weight and just being healthy so that's also one of the reasons why I love "The Dressing Room" 

These are the newest arrivals from The Kardashian Kollection... 

My favorite denim is "The Kim" sexy and curvy 

OOTD - Fresno Weekend

If you we are friends on Facebook then you've already seen these pictures. I was at a wedding this past weekend and just pulled together this look at the last minute. Men always wonder why we pack for a week when we are only traveling for 2 days. This is exactly why....I had no clue this wedding was going to happen, but because I was so prepared, I had no problems finding something fun to wear. 

target skinny jeans, vintage purse, calvin klein tshirt, H&M necklace, Dior Sunglasses

TJmaxx purses, Target seafoam jelly watch, vintage/H&M/Forever 21 bangles

Vintage Tweed Jacket and heels, Forever 21 ring

Thoughts of the Day....

     I’ve been going through a lot of stuff in my personal and spiritual life.  Although I am a motivational speaker and mentor to others, it doesn’t make me perfect.  I am still “work in progress” and every day I learn more and more about myself.  For the longest time, I hid behind the color black because I never felt good enough. I had my achievements, I found my passion but I never found me.  It’s a journey that I can never stop talking about because it’s so personal and so emotional.  We all have our own insecurities but I never really knew how deep my scars were until I started wondering why I was always feeling so different. I go out and speak to others about the importance of love, communication, empowerment, higher education and most of all, to love yourself….but what I didn’t realize was that I was speaking to myself.  It’s funny how things work.  I thought I was at my strongest, but yet the truth was, I was at my weakest point of my life.  I strived so hard to be a good role model because I never wanted anyone to feel or go through what I went through.  When you are being told you are something for so long, you start believing that’s who you are.  Let me tell you, it wasn’t a positive thing.  I wasn’t strong enough and I allowed it to affect me in a way that I couldn’t even understand it myself. I asked myself why do I push these young girls so much to strive for success? Why do I care so much that these girls learn to stand up for themselves? Why do I care so much that they are independent and never feel like they have to wait on someone else? I was so passionate about being a big sister and motivating them to be the best that they can be.  What I realized that I was fighting so hard for them because if I knew they were good, then I would be too.  I was trying to heal through my own hurt. 

     Well, today I can honestly say that I am a new person.  I am proud, I stand tall and I can finally tell myself that I am beautiful and … actually believe it. I have found the one thing that has truly confirmed who I am supposed to be.  I found God.  I know this blog is not about religion or god, but because this is my personal experience, I feel the need to express how different I am today.  I am no longer lost nor am I going to hide anymore. I am no longer living in fear and I am no longer blaming others for my own sadness or insecurities.  I am taking my life back and I am setting myself free for me in respect to my god, my creator who had sent his only son to die for me… for me!(John 3:16)because he loves me so much.  Why did I spend so much time dwelling on how society thought of me and why did I lose focus on how god created me? I now know that I am created in reflection of him and he is perfect.  It never dawned to me that all these years, I’ve been insulting my god for “not spending” enough time on creating me to be better. I always felt that I wasn’t pretty enough, I wasn’t tall enough, I wasn’t skinny enough…. The list goes on….. But my point is, I am free…. I am at peace and I have accepted all my faults and I take responsibility for all my actions. I blamed everyone but myself.  I was so unhappy but no one knew about it because I’m great at hiding it. I have forgiven myself and I have forgiven thouse who didn't know any better that bullied and hurt me becuase they too were hurt. 
     I am so blessed that although I was personally struggling, I was still strong enough to push and motivate the ones who were even more lost and now, I get to witness how they've persevered, succeeded in life, graduated from under grad and grad school, yet still looking up to me today as they’ve become Doctors and very important people in our society.  I was using them to heal my own soul and its truly helped me understand myself and why I was hurting so much.  However only through god, I have learned to forgive myself, everyone that I had blamed and to love…to really really love, as he truly loves me.  When I say, I’ve been through struggles of my own, I can write a novel about it but I won’t bombard you with it in one blog….  I am feeling extra good today because I had an amazing worship rehearsal last night (song practice)and the meaning behind the music and the lyrics are still lingering in my heart today. I can't wait to sing it at church in two weeks!  

     I know Fashion is my passion, but I am dedicated to use it to help others find themselves.  I’ve never had so many colors in my closet before and even my closest friends see the difference in me and my spirit.I am so proud of where I’ve come and I am so proud of who I am today. I look forward to what comes next and what god has planned for me. I truly want to use my passion to affect and make changes in other people’s lives and hopefully it’ll help them find their own passion as well.  We need to feed our soul and if its empty, we will forever be empty. 
     My friends, if you are happy with yourself, then bravo… I am proud of you. For those who were or are lost, know that I see you. I know where you are coming from. I also want you to know that there’s always, always a way out, so never ever give up on yourself. You are too special and too precious to be nothing but the best. If I ever get a chance to meet with any of you, I hope to be a strong influence and someone you can look up to too. If you see me, please come up and say hi because I'd love to meet you. I am all about change, motivation and inspiration…I always have been and even more now because I truly am my own example. I’ve walked the walk and now I can finally talk the talk! 

Today, I am free….. and I love myself because my god loves me! If you are lost, I want you to set yourself free and feel as good as I feel today.

I didn’t give up on myself and I never want you to either.  Let’s do this together! I know I still lots of work to do, but I am so excited to see where this takes me........

"Nothing is Impossible, because the word itself saids I'm Possible"